You Made It! And I Am With You!

This one was written shortly after I was sitting at a school play all alone, in my Junior year of high school. The play was Singin’ in the Rain, and in the middle of the part where he sings “I’m happy again!” I realized I was crying. Tears of joy, luckily, because I had just realized that for the first time in a long time, I really was happy again.

I have a message for her, 
The poor child I was before 
The one who sees in static fuzz 
And doesn’t feel things anymore. 

Anna, you’ll savor every moment;
Purely joyful that you can Be. 
Your ribs will become tuning forks 
And hum with sacred harmony. 

Color will come back one day, 
And she’ll greet you like an old friend. 
You’ll bonk your head against the mirror 
And be so proud you didn’t end. 

Things will not be perfect--
Quite far from it, in fact. 
But despite your fresh new hardships
Your heart and smile escape intact. 

Your favorite english teacher dies, 
But not before she pulls you free. 
She’ll give you the first pink spark 
And start you towards recovery. 

Your lungs get hurt forever, 
But don’t worry, it’s alright 
They might hack and cough and tremble, 
But they won’t give up this fight. 

Most important, you are different now. 
You are brave and you are kind. 
You will dig into your life with purpose
And you will like what you find. 

Please remember that I love you. 
It’s okay if you can’t always thrive. 
But you’ll get there soon, I promise. 
I’m proud of you. You stayed alive.